4 Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud 5 or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. 6 It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. 7 Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 (NLT)
Melinda had Chemo on Thursday and Radiation on Friday. She is already starting to experience stomach pains and headaches. My heart aches to see her in pain. Knowing that she has four more rounds of radiation this week as well as more chemo (Temador pill) and what those past treatments have done to her body has mentally and physically drained me.
I attended a celebration of life ceremony for Robin Roe, today. It was difficult thinking about how young Robin was when she was called home. I personally thought it was a good memorial, but throughout I kept thinking about Melinda. Is God going to heal her? Is he going to call her home? What else might he do with her, with me?
I know it should not, but it still amazes me that when I am struggling God sends me exactly what I need. As I left the memorial, I turned on K-Love and NOTHING ELSE by Cody Carnes began to play. I’m sure I have heard it before but for some reason, each word spoke to me this time as I was driving and crying.
It was as if the Holy Spirit was reminding why I am here through those song lyrics,
“I’m not here for blessings“
“Jesus, You don’t owe me anything”
“I’m sorry when I’ve just gone through the motions”
“I’m sorry when I’ve come with my agenda”
“I’m sorry when I forgot that You’re enough.”
God has Melinda. I need not worry. I know she is a thousand times stronger than I will ever be. God has a plan for her and as she constantly reminds us all, “God is in Control”. I know that we will all leave this earth one day. We will either go to Heaven or Hell. Robin is now sitting at the feet of Jesus. I know Melinda and I will join her one day. Do you know if you will? If not I would love to tell you about the GOSPEL, so you can know for sure you will be with Jesus.
